Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Kripalu Yoga Teacher Training ~ Practice Teach One!
Today was a really big day. Lots of stress going around the place, which is exactly the opposite of what Kripalu is about. Kripalu is ALL about tranquility and good food and great views and all that jazz, but today was test day...so to speak.
After only a week and a day and after learning in lots of Sanskrit names of postures, press points, proper yoga language, etc., it was now time to put all of our knowledge to the test and actually teach for 30 minutes.
How it works here is that we are split up into groups of three or four and we have to teach to our groups. Just to add on the pressure; our teachers and class assistants would randomly jump into our group while we are teaching to join in and evaluate! OK. Breathe. LOL.
Of course you have to remember that this is Kripalu after all. So in our first teach there is nothing, but positive feedback, but that didn't stop me from stressing a little bit.
As I prepared last night for the teach today I was reminded of my college days and that fact that I am a crammer. I mean it's really nothing new. I worked on my class outline last night for the practice teach today. I had it all in my head or most of it, but I just couldn't get it down until last night. That's how I write articles and even deliver songs. I don't like a process to be too long and drawn out. Where some people will wait until a song is perfect to put it out, I'm like, let's put it out and see how it goes and then we can tweak. You can't quite do exactly that here, but the one thing our teachers did say was that today would be messy and not perfect and if it was perfect then we would fail. LOL! That was a joke of course, but the point was for us to have fun and know that if it wasn't perfect that's OK and we would have a chance to do it again.
I think for me one of the things that made me nervous was mirroring. Every time I got to yoga class I'm in awe of the teachers who can mirror the class. In other words their left is right and right is left. The other thing that amazes me is when teachers can teach a whole posture while talking. That has always been incredible to me. Well today I did both! I mirrored and I demoed and talked at the same time!
Surely everything was not perfect today. I switched the order of my plan by accident, but I quickly learned that it was OK because the class/group didn't know what my plan was so they didn't know anything was out of order. Yes! I also did something today that I am really the most proud of. When I messed up or realized I was out of sequence, I didn't beat myself up about it. Yes I'm human folks. I do have negative self talk just like you, but today I told my negative talking self to take a hike! I did a great job and yes I'm saying it myself. :-)
I was the last to go in my group today, which was kind of tough actually. Yes I had the benefit of watching everyone else and taking some mental notes, but after the first person went I just wanted to go and get it over with. Que Sera... My time was my time and it was right on time.
There were lots of tears and revelations today for my classmates, and I was not exempt in that department. I came here saying that I wanted to teach, but having no idea if I actually could. I kept thinking of all my teachers along the way and drew from so many of them. I got to give Reiki to my students in shavasana, which I have ALWAYS wanted to do and as I heard myself guiding the class into tadasasna, I could hear the voices of the many teachers along the way who told me in class to tuck my tailbone and lift up through the crown of my head to elongate my spine. Now I am sharing that and it's amazing!
Today I learned that I am a teacher. I can do this damn thing and that is exactly what I said to my class today after our teach. I was sweating after it was all over. I could feel it dripping down my back. The nerves were that for sure, but I'm ready. Today's class was 30 minutes and the next will be 45 minutes. Now it seems like no sweat. Bring on the hour class!
There is still so much to learn. I know we will be getting lots of feedback from out teachers in the days to come, but one big hurdle has been jumped. I am shocked daily by the amount of information that we are asked to retain and the fact that it's actually, really and truly in there. In our brains that is.
One of my classmates is a pianist, another plays piano, guitar and harmonica and then there is me. So tonight we shared our victory together with some of our other classmates around the piano in the main hall. We listened, made up songs and I even sang a couple of my own. It was the perfect ending to an amazing day. Every day should begin with yoga and end with music or a combination of the two.
As I watch the leaves fall right before my eyes and that landscape that was all reds, yellows and browns, turn to gray as some remain evergreen, I am so thankful. Thank you all again so much for your love and support. So many goals have been reached and there are even more to come. We have almost reached the fundraising goad. We are so close. Thank you, Thank you, Thank You!
Goodnight and Jai Bahgwan!
BTW-Sorry I haven't had more pictures for you. My camera on my phone has been acting special out here since that first day. Gonna try and work it out for you soon. :-)